Glad you enjoyed it, there’s some wild stories he has covered. Another favourite of a similar vein is the multipart episode on the early Xbox hacking scene: https://darknetdiaries.com/episode/45/

Anyone interested in diving deep into the rabbit hole on Team Xecuter and Gary, I highly recommend the Darknet Diaries episode in which Jack interviews Gary and goes through the history.

https://darknetdiaries.com/episode/136/

I don’t think there’s magic one size fits all answer to this, it really sucks you have to deal with it. Avoid destructive behaviours like drinking until you pass out etc, they won’t help in the long term. Do you have any friends IRL you can call on?