Gaia [She/Her]

I guess I kind of see it like this: I wouldn’t touch C or C++ without a 10-ft pole. Rust is my 10-ft pole.

That being said, I think python occupies a very different space from rust and allows for super rapid prototyping so I wouldn’t conflate the two

Sounds like he’s just mad something he made is being replaced with something that is better in every conceivable way

Sorry bud but most people are focusing on rust, not python, and you’ve been lapped by them several times over.

I had a mental breakdown a while ago because I was in denial of my gender identity. I…can’t remember much of it, but it wasn’t great, according to my loved ones. I’m ashamed of it and I wish I could do anything that I felt would properly apologize to them but I’m sure it traumatized many of them, as I’ve done in the past. Before I blacked out, I can remember that mandalas would appear on surfaces my mind wanted me to focus on, twisting and seething with an entrancing psychedelic energy that forced me to focus on that task. I’ve never experienced terror more complete than losing control of both my body and mind, and I’ve almost been trampled in a human stampede, blocking people from trampling others and picking up fallen children off the ground. Life is better now that I have estrogen in my system, but I imagine it would be intolerable otherwise. I hope I can forgive myself one day. I have therapy soon, so that will help a lot.

Is there a reason you want to start with lisp? If you’re like, intellectually incapable of complex languages, the simple one I’m familiar with is python, which works great for a beginner who doesn’t want to get into the nitty gritty of implementation. As long as you’re not developing for a business or similar, I doubt you’ll even notice there is an efficiency difference. IMO, the increased readability is tantamount to Python’s usefulness to newbies.

Are you more sensitive to stimulation than the average person?

I dunno if it’s autism since I despise C++ lmao

I don’t use C++ and I complain about it all the time. Never have I had a project that couldn’t be completed in equal or better accuracy in something other than C++, and the amount of development time it adds on just to use the damn thing is prohibitive. Let alone fast compilation for iterative design, or reduction in boilerplate. I feel the only thing C++ has is seniority and a smidgen of performance, and performance is rapidly being approached or exceeded by projects like rust.

I think there are two types of programming languages:

Good ones that are expressive and readable, like you need from a language.

And

Things that sorely need replacement.

Sorry, I just really fucking hate that quote. It’s so pretentious and stupid, and doesn’t allow for the development of anything new unless people don’t like it. Programmers are surprisingly conservative.

I am not a therapist or counselor, but know that your worth isn’t based on your physical strength, even as a man. You are valuable, and you don’t need to be able to overpower people to provide for your partner. If it makes you feel better, I trust “weaker” men more because they tend to be humble and treat me with the respect I deserve. Your siblings sound like they’re going to have shallow and unpleasantly interesting lives.

I work at a sex store. Was showing guy products. Asked if he could fuck me. When I say no, asks if he can suck my dick. I’m a trans woman and I get a lot of this sort of thing.

I also had a customer grab my breast after I checked him out at the gas station I worked at.

Maybe it was the time a lady asked me to put in gloves to handle her change, or the time after that when the same lady dropped change on the ground next to her car and ordered me to pick it up for her (this would require me to walk in front of her vehicle).

Maybe it was the time a woman my age walked up to me and asked if I was “one of those transgenders” and when I said yes she asked if I was “one of the angry ones”.

Idk

Everything sucks

I stupidly thought that since everyone uses computers and they are getting more popular, I could pursue my passion as a career. Still waiting on an entry level job.