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Nah, still seems to be violating it. Try changing to Input 2 and try again

Well that just violates the first rule.

Rule 2: Encourage conversation in your post

Where conversation encouragement? Could be reported for that.

I downvoted simply because your post doesn’t belong here, in my opinion. I agree with you however. Just don’t see why this was posted here and not just carried on in discussion there.

I worked security a while back for a private mom and pop type company. The boss, D, was a God amongst men. First off he had a glorious ass. Second was he was just exceptionally down to earth and kind. During my interview I had just come off a night shift and accidentally swore. I immediately realized and apologized. He just said “Oh I don’t fuckin care” with a smirk. I worked for him for a while before getting posted to a mall. He would pick me up occasionally or drop me off if he knew the busses were bad. Not because my being late would mess the schedule. Just because he could and wanted to.

With all the trauma I was still processing and with severe ADHD, my brain ran wild and imagined way too much. This is really bad when your job is just to stand at an entrance all day. After a couple of days where I just started crying randomly, I went to the security office of the mall that we were contracted to and said I had to dip. Boss called me on the way home asking why and if I was okay. I explained. He said to take as much time off as I needed, zero questions asked.

After a week he called me back asking if I was okay to come back. I said I wanted to take another week. He said sure. He paid me a minimum amount of hours I didn’t ask for in that week and when I brought it up he said that he didn’t know what I was talking about and then said the word wink. After that second week he called back and I was not okay. I was rapidly falling apart. I said I appreciated the opportunity he gave me but I’d have to quit so I didn’t waste his time and I’d bring the uniform in in a couple days. He said he didn’t allow me to quit and hung up. Couple days later I got papers in the mail saying I had been laid off instead so I was able to collect EI benefits and get extra med and health coverage.

Nicest boss I’ve ever had and I don’t know if anyone could come close.

All over the place. Super stressed about some shit, super happy about others… It’s weird as hell.

I want to rip my hair out. Deadline for paperwork I NEED to have submitted is the 23rd but I am cutting it insanely close. Why? Because I can’t find a doctor that doesn’t charge a fortune to get the paperwork done. Then when I get the appointment lined up, other shit happens and sets it back and I’m going to lose my mind.

Well it’s a lot.

I’ve got to either find a doctor immediately or get an extension on paperwork I’m probably not gonna be able to get. Causing a great deal of stress.

My roommate has decided to move out and we’re in the process of getting me added to the lease. If i’m not added to the lease then I have no idea what I’m going to do as it took me months to even find this place. Causing also a huge deal of stress.

Started playing some games with a friend I met here on Lemmy. He’s dope and a chill guy and we’ve chatted a bunch lately. That’s been nice and kinda what I needed.

Started playing a new game, Warhammer 40k Darktide, which is super fun. Just gotta find people to play with that.

And opened a brand new Star Trek community called !tenforward@lemmy.world with Picard, Flying Squid and Negative Null and the place is exploding and a bop.

So many of the things!

Everything’s okay at the moment I guess but mentally I’m floundering. I keep waking up screaming from night terrors and when I’m awake I keep wishing the building collapsed on me. I hate this holiday so much. Tired of going through it alone and tired of seeing everyone so fuckin happy. Tired of having a bad Christmas every year. Tired of my traumatized ass. Tired of everything.

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True. Just be nice if I could afford that even on a good day. I’m just tired.

I’m gonna be real, it’s been a really awful couple days due to three things. My cat got sick and I had to rush her to the vet. Turns out she’s perfectly fine but my wallet isn’t and likely won’t be for a while. That leads to the second thing. A friend owed me $50 and said he’d pay me back this month or next. I asked if he could send back $20 in the next few days and he blocked me. So that’s fun. Having to budget everything all over again while marking that off completely. Now that’s not too bad but things got topped off with the third thing. While dealing with all this, I got a phone call. A friend who had been sick for a while passed away. There’s been a lot of Baldurs Gate 3 during the past 24 hours with me just going full murderhobo out of frustration.